A Series of Unfortunate...Stuff

So...haven't posted in awhile. Lots o' stuff to write about, unfortunately...

My mother was completely seasick on the cruise...and now, less than a month after leaving the ship, my grandfather is dead. He was admitted to the hospital the day that they left the ship, and progressively kept getting worse. Him and my grandmother had been married for 58 years, and we're all praying that she will make it without him...

*Sigh* Isaac and I are doing pretty well...it seems like we've all gotten into a truce with our parents, so life is peaceful for the time being. I love him so very much...hearing how depressed my grandmother is over the loss of my grandfather has made me want to hold him all day and night, and shield him from anything that might hurt him. If I could protect him from everything, every sickness, it would make my life complete. I pray that if we go, we go together, because I know that we can't survive apart.

In the meantime, my daddy's birthday is on Thursday, and my mom is in Florida helping with the funeral arrangements...so it's just me and him. I love my dad...I can't imagine how my mother feels right now. My dad and I are so close that if he died, I'm not sure if I could keep living without him. There are only four people I feel this way about...my mom, my dad, Isaac, and (though he doesn't know it) John. *sigh* Losing people is not my thing, that's for damn sure.

I never really got to make things right with my grandfather...we hadn't gotten along for the past few years, because of a fight...and I haven't told him that I loved him since then. I haven't even talked to him since my mother's birthday in November...I never got to tell him that I loved him and goodbye. I regret that so much...he was a wonderful man, and I had no right to treat him like I did...cliche, but worth it all the same...do not take people for granted...

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Not a happy entry...sorry everyone...