Thursday, May 05, 2005

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I've been really angry, edgy, and overly obsessive compulsive lately so I decided to call a friend of mine, who is a psychologist in Massachusets, and asked what my problem might be.

After discussing the fact that I already have OCD, he asked if I was angry. I said yes, because obviously I am. He asked if little things were setting me off...Niki and Laura can atest to that, and yes, little things have been setting me off for some inexplicable reason. So he told me that he thinks my OCD has kicked into a thing called the Third Stage, which is when any flaws, even the tiniest ones, in your surrounding environment can trigger your anger, no matter how small. Even things that normally would not effect me, or my "normal" brain, are picked up by my subconscious and used to trigger my anger. He said that there is no medicine, and there isn't really much I can do, but hope that the people around me will understand. So, I hope you all understand, even though I know that a sorry or a mental weirdness isn't an excuse or warranted, but I hope you'll at least try to understand. For once, I really can't control this, and it's been like this for about 3 months now. I've trashed my room so many times in the past week alone, I'm surprised the walls are still standing. Just...please bear with me. I'm trying to get past this and hopefully, even though he said there isn't much to do, I'm hoping to prove him wrong.

o.o

I feel like the Hulk O.o

*sigh*

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have an OCD workbook back from a few years ago that helped me a whole bunch with my OCD. If you're interested, I can dig up the title/author of it for you. It might help you out a bit.

6:19 PM  
Blogger Maytrix said...

Thanks, I might take you up on that.

9:48 PM  

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